It has been quite a while since my hubby and I travelled for holiday. So this time, I decided to go holiday on his birthday, making it a special one for him. We couldn’t really decide on a country as we don’t want to spend so much for a short trip, so it has to be neighbouring country. He wanted to go Taiwan actually but all he can think of is to see the bicycles in Taiwan. I definitely say no to that, I don’t wish to pack a big bicycle as our extended luggage back home to Singapore. So I suggested Macau, a place where most people might not think of probably as a tourism spot except for casinos. Neither of us gamble, so we are definitely there to enjoy and therefore hopping that most people are in the casinos and we can be out enjoying.
One of my purpose to go Macau is to watch the musical - 水舞間
Today we did another ride at Punggol Park. This time, it was with LCSG (Love Cycling SG) FaceBook group. There were about 20-30 people or so turning up for it. Total distance was about 29.3km. In between, we stopped over for roti prata, as always like their motto - ERP (Eat, Ride, Photo).
So far I will say God is good to me. My weekend now normally is split to Sat, spending time with hubby. Sun to spend time with Raelyn and family, so busy huh. Am I happy? Yes, I do. However, it also makes me wonder, what happened if I am pregnant at this time again. I was reminded by the verse yesterday in church service.
Psalm 37:4 (NIV) Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
An example that Pastor quoted was when a father lifted his son up in the air. What is always so amazing is the son will smile happily, how about the father’s reaction? He, himself is being delighted. We are happy and so will our Father be. Finding happiness in our daily life and be contented with what we have, sound easy, however we always wants more and make ourself unhappy. How’s true…
Just seen the doctor last thursday, all blood results are back. Most of them is ok, in fact all except 1, glucose test. The post 2 hours glucose test is higher. Though not significantly higher but doctor say is “Impaired Diabetes”, not diabetes but just impaired. He said need to keep a close watch when I am pregnant on the glucose level as diabetes can cause miscarriage too. Another potential problem because especially when I pregnant, my highly desire carving is sweet drink. Drink like ribena that I don’t normally drink because I find it too sweet, when pregnant, they are just so desirable. So he said all is set and ready, I can go ahead and try naturally anytime. It makes me wonder are we on the wrong direction all this while? Maybe is the glucose level that is causing the problem, not the cervix? That might explains why the stitch doesn’t work? Then again, he said might or might not stitch for next pregnancy, to determine later since both pregnancies, either stitch or no stitch didn’t help. Headache, sounds like back to square one. Ultra confused and don’t know what to do.
Last friday, my friend asked me, “Are you ready?” A simple question yet I find it hard to answer. The expected lost of freedom, can’t drive, can’t even go out, can’t get to eat certain food, the same routine all days, 24/7. It does really get to me, to the extent I really feel no quality of life. A few days ago, God is telling me to slow down, now today He is telling me this. God is good! Slowing down does not mean to give up, neither does it mean to give in to sins. It is just simply means resting in Him and persevere.
Hebrews 12:1-4 (NIV) 12 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. 4 In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.
“Write down the revelation
and make it plain on tablets
so that a herald[b] may run with it.
3 For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it[c] will certainly come
and will not delay.
I came across this from someone’s post some time back so I am writing this down to remind me later of God’s grace. I believed it and will have Faith!
I will conceive naturally by end of this year and to carry my precious baby till full term before delivering to a cute baby son. There will not be any complications, infections of whatsoever, my baby is fearfully and wonderfully made. My body is healed of all problems and I am all ready to receive this wonderful gift of child.
Likewise, my business come to a good growth and balance where I can have a good income coming in monthly with minium supervision. I will have a backup sales to help me and my designers are able to work hand in hand to complete projects on hand.
I will be able to rest well on my confinement months and to enjoy the company of my baby allowing me to have more time with him. My son is good and obedient, he will only cry when there is a need to and when necessary. He like to smile on all occasions and is a happy boy. He will grow up to be a man of integrity upholding honor protecting his loved ones. He will have a career that he loved and provided comfortably for his family in time to come. Amen!
5 prayer nights actually meant nothing to me before that. I do not know what is the purpose, what are we praying for or what is the agenda. However, after attending last week - 5 Prayer Nights, now it has a new meaning to me. I thought God spoke to me since last sunday. I was feeling lousy and on monday, I followed our Carecell Group to go on monday. Though nothing significance happened, but 2 songs (He is here, The Way That He Loves) touched me. So I was encouraged to go on tuesday again even though it meant that I was going alone. Quite irony was that though I didn’t plan for, however, I had the car for the whole week leaving me no excuse not to go for the prayer nights.
The song that I have been searching high and low for it finally found by my Spirtual Sister. How’s nice.
Tuesday
We were given this verse - John 1:35-40 35 The next day John was there again with two of his disciples. 36 When he saw Jesus passing by, he said, “Look, the Lamb of God!”
37 When the two disciples heard him say this, they followed Jesus. 38 Turning around, Jesus saw them following and asked, “What do you want?”
They said, “Rabbi” (which means “Teacher”), “where are you staying?”
39 “Come,” he replied, “and you will see.”
So they went and saw where he was staying, and they spent that day with him. It was about four in the afternoon.
40 Andrew, Simon Peter’s brother, was one of the two who heard what John had said and who had followed Jesus.
Therefore we were told to seek, follow Him and get a revalation before we can leave for the night. So stressful and challenging for me. However, as we sang songs and prayed, I got a vision. I saw very clearly where I was lying on the hospital bed with my hubby back then praying desperately for my twin. The vision was very clear, I knew which ward was I back then and I saw it from a different perspective. Being humans, we always only prayed and seek Him when we are desperate, however, when we are healthy, we forget about Him.
Thursday
I went with my Spiritual Parent this time and having dinner with her before that, updating her of my condition so far. I was rather tired already with headache as well thinking that it should just be another regular session for me. However, after 1.5 hours into the prayer night, our Senior Pastor asked for altar call, something he didn’t do for the past 3 days. He ask for “Mighty Healing” in particular. It seems to be just calling out to me. I was just telling my Spiritual Parent about it and now altar call asked for it. I was very overwhelmed and went to the altar call. In Jesus name, I believe I am healed!
Friday
The last night of the 5 days week. Again, I was challenged. So far, I had seek Him, got a vision and gotten my healing. However, God is awesome doing much more into our lives. He rejoiced with us too when we are happy. I got to hear from Him again though the song - He is here.
What a powerful week, we were taught as a new believer how to seek Him and to pray for ourselves. How wonderful and blessed are we…
This song which is what my Spirtual Sister liked and also the one who helped me to find the song. Enjoy. You are great!
This is the first time that I sign up for a cycling event since it is a 14km ride only, however I soon realise the eMailer said, “Level of Difficulty: High”. The distance is 14km, however, we are expected to complete in 2 hours. Not sure if that is considered fast or slow though because I never really timed my speed or anything. Well, since I have already signed up, might as well just trained up a bit then… Turn out to be a pretty ok ride since we stopped quite frequenctly for water and take photos. Think it is our singaporeans culture, we go anywhere must eat and take photos. Haha, I joined in too, also I found a new friend, Michelle. Cheers!
Then again, our ride back turned out to add a combine total of 33km. Partially due to the road blocks by construction and also my hubby went the wrong way. :p
What a night, on 1 hand, I just learnt that my relative’s father had just passed away. On the other hand, my friend is scheduling to deliver her baby twin next saturday. 1 death here but on the other hands, 2 babies coming. I asked myself where am I between these 2 extremes. I am neither, not even on ground zero, way below it. I went TCM today, I have been seeing it for a couple of months now, people asked me if there is any help, frankly speaking, I can’t tell and no obvious signal to know if it is good or not.
Likewise, I had just attended church mission conference tonight, the message simple as it is - Go and do it (Acts 28:1-10). Simple as it seems, never easy to do. I told myself I am tasked to do bigger things and missions. I can do it and I will believe this in faith. Amen!
BTW, do you know how many McDonalds or franchises are there in the world?
About 38,000.
So how many Assemblies of God (AG) or sister churches are there in the world?
350,000.
So what do you have to say about it?
Someone also gave me this for encouragement to seek the heartbeat of God. A small gift but show her sincerely. How’s nice.
My hubby new bike is finally here. It is a foldable bike, now he can throw his bike into the car boot, I mean put. A yellow bike to match his yellow shirt. If you see carefully, his glasses is also yellow. Now confirm a “banana man”. From photo 1 to 4, I presume he liked his bike since he entertain me to take the photos, also his smile get broader.
Yesterday, I heard my Cell Leader (CL) shared he wrote something to himself to evaluate about how his Christian life for 14 years so far. I think it is common for Christians to reflect on themselves after a while to see if they have transform and likewise is it for the better or worse. As I listen to him, I asked myself how is my life for the past 8 years or so? Why 8 years, that is the time when I was first married and since embarking on my business a year later. It was not easy, roller coaster ride, there are ups and downs, though I am glad that I ride it over. Personally, I have stepped out of my comfort zone again and again, trying new things, trying to be less perfectionist though my friends may still think I am. Likewise, I have also learn - For things to change, first I must change. Sounds weird, no, if you don’t take a different approach to start with, how to see things in another perspective and changes things? Also, I was reminded by my mum when she insisted that after I converted, I will change. Do they know something about myself that I don’t know or realise, I wonder…
Also, I have taken some courses and seminars along the way for personal development along side with my business. I have hit some highs and some lows. Even until now that I have baptised, it is yet another step to my personal development, hoping to bring another new height. In the meantime, it is now for me to rest, study and to work on MYSELF. May I find peace in the Lord, for I know He is my Saviour and Provider. Amen!
I believe in "When there is a Will, there is a Way". That's why I believe that, as long as we tried hard enough, success is within our hands unless you did not do your best.
We couldn’t really decide on a country as we don’t want to spend so much for a short trip, so it has to be neighbouring country. He wanted to go Taiwan actually but all he can think of is to see the bicycles in Taiwan. I definitely say no to that, I don’t wish to pack a big bicycle as our extended luggage back home to Singapore. So I suggested Macau, a place where most people might not think of probably as a tourism spot except for casinos. Neither of us gamble, so we are definitely there to enjoy and therefore hopping that most people are in the casinos and we can be out enjoying.
